We started our Friday on the right foot with this video today. If this doesn’t go viral in the next few days (ahem, 24West may have added a couple dozen views), we’ll be damned. It’s infectious, and we love it!
Beware: You will not be able to stop watching.
Found my old LJ, and it’s brought back so many memories. This particular one stood out because in a weird way, it made me feel good about where I am right now, and I needed that reminder:
i feel so depressed and i can’t even explain why. i wish i knew what exactly is making me feel this way because maybe i’d be able to do something about it if i knew. part of me thinks it’s because i’m not satisfied with my life right now, or rather where i am at this point in my life. i turned 19 on monday, and it was really the best birthday i’ve had since i’ve come to canada. i didn’t do anything special, but when you’ve had a crappy birthday for the last 3 years, you appreciate the littlest things. and i’m grateful for everything, i loved spending the day with tristan, but my birthday was just a bad reminder of how left behind i am. i’m so far away from where i want to be. sometimes i feel like i’ll never get where i really want to be and that depresses me even more. i was feeling the exact same way this time last year. maybe it’s just this part of the year that makes me feel this way? when i turn a year older, everything i’ve tried to avoid thinking of just hits me? i don’t know. i just really feel unhappy and i want to change it so much.
my birthday wish was for things to change in the future and that i get where i want to be.
I wish I could go back and just say this to 19-year-old-Eda: You’ll go through hell and back, and you’ll meet far too many dipshits, but it all works out in the end. You just need to get all those bad things and bad people out of the way first. And you will be on track to making the life that you want a reality, surrounded by wonderful people.
And I guess that’s the advice that I would give to anyone who feels stuck and confused. Just don’t give up; it really does get better. When you’re down, there’s nowhere else to go but up. It’s a fact.
It’s often difficult to describe how or why music has the impact that it does in my life, since at the end of the day… I am simply a listener. I could sit here all day and list the reasons why I’ve decided to drop everything and focus on just that — music — for the rest of my life, despite the uncertainties it brings. But when it comes down to it, it’s all very simple: music has brought me closer to people all over the world, people that I consider some of my best friends. It’s because of that, and the fact that I have random kids on Twitter tell me about how they found a musician like Ólafur Arnalds thanks to my relentless promotion, and that they feel forever grateful… as do the musicians themselves that I’ve helped along the way. It’s an incredible feeling, and it’s a feeling I never want to let go of. Financial stability would be ideal, but I think I’ll stick to this “music thing” and see where it takes me, because music has, without a doubt, been the single constant in my life. And I never want that to change.
When in need, good friends pull through and send you great quotes like this. Thanks, Dan.
"I think it’s great for two people to be together. That is a good number. I think, that to keep it alive though, you can’t spend every day together. It wears out the magic, Love means nothing to me if it’s not fortified with fierce, painful longing, brief explosive instances of furious passion and intimacy and then a sad parting for a time. In that way, you can give your life to it and still have a life of your own. I think some couples spend too much time together. They flatten out the potential for experience by constant closeness. Passion builds over time like steam. Let it rage until it’s exhausted and then leave it alone to let it build up again. Why can’t love be insane and distorted? How can it be vital if it has the same threshold as normal day-to-day experience? Why can’t you write burning letters and let your nocturnal self smolder with desire for one who is not there? Why not let the days before you see her be excruciating and ferment in your mind so on the day you go to the airport to pick her up, you’re nearly sick with anticipation? And then when desire shows the first sign of contentment, throw it back it its cage and let it slowly build itself back into a state of starved fury. Then when you are together, it all matters. So that when you look into her eyes, you lose your balance, so that when she touches you, it feels like you have never been touched before. When she says your name, you think it was she who named you. When she has gone, you bury your face in the pillow to smell her hair and you lie awake at night remembering your face in her neck, her breathing and the amazing smell of her skin. Your eyes go wet because you want her so bad and miss her so much. Now that is worth the miles and the time. That matches the inferno of life. Otherwise you poison each other with your presence day after day as you drag each other through the inevitable mundane aspects of your lives. That is the slow death that I see slapped on faces everywhere I go. It’s part of the world’s sadness that’s more empty than cold, poorly lit rooms in cities of the American night."
Henry Rollins (via albinwonderland)
Relationships require a lot of work and effort, but in the end, it’s all worth it.
I’ve had so much going on (music wise) today that I’m finding it a bit difficult to wrap my mind around it. I’m pretty exhausted mentally at this point (3:30 am), so I won’t even attempt to write about what’s happened in great detail — but I’d like to highlight the following events/news because it’s just been a special sort of day, if you will.
- Lazkerbeak Exclusive: easily one of the best, and one of my personal favourite, exclusives that I’ve set up. It was just something else, so take a listen for yourself.
- Angus & Julia Stone: anyone that has known me for a few years… knows how much this band means to me. They made me become involved in the music scene so much more than ever before because I was determined to make the world listen; their success proved that I had the power to influence many, many listeners out there and gave me the confidence I needed. But enough about that — both of these amazing musicians (Angus Stone / Julia Stone) will release solo albums this year. I’ve been on cloud 9 over this news all day, and things only got better after their announcement: I was able to get in touch with them. Just incredible. Can’t think of other words to describe this.
- Dreamend, Great Lake Swimmers, Rodrigo y Gabriela, Xiu Xiu, Horse Feathers, etc..: these are some of my favourite bands, and I not only received press releases re: new albums, but actually received some of the albums as well. To say that I’ve been overwhelmed with good music in the past ~40 hours would be an understatement. With that being said, please take a moment to check out all these bands; they’re wonderful.
- Graveface Records: some good stuff should be happening with them soon, and I am very excited about this.
It’s almost 4 am now and everyone (but me) is asleep. I don’t expect anyone to read this, but if anyone does, it’s probably people who are constantly supporting what I do (read: the ones who keep me going). Either way, I just needed to make a note of this ridiculously eventful day. Perhaps now that I did, I will be able to sleep. But first things first — this Dreamend record needs to end before I can rest!
I’ve started to think about my end of the year list, and what kind of lists I plan to include this year. I have now decided that I want to have a list for absolutepunk.net bands — the bands that users of the forums are a part of that I really love.
My current list:
Billions and Billions (obvs)
I can’t seem to think of others right now, but I’m sure there’s a few more. Either way, this is my working list. I love AP.net members that I’ve spent time talking to and getting to know, and I want to help promote their music a little more. The music they make is pretty incredible, and I hope that a few more readers will fall in love with it just like I have.
I sometimes tend to put things on hold for far too long, and I eventually forget to do them at all. It’s funny because this is never a problem if I’m to do something for someone else; I just seem to slack a lot regarding personal things. This can be a real problem at times, and it needs to stop.
There are things that I have been meaning to do for a while that I never get around to, so I’ve decided to start a little list. I kept thinking about how much I would want to get all of these things done today, but perhaps that’s the problem: I don’t give myself reasonable deadlines. I mean, it’s St. Pattys today, and I don’t need to explain why it would probably be impossible for everything to get done, so I’ve decided that I have until next Thursday to get the following done:
— Print photos of me and my friends
— Put said photos on my wall
— Write back to Katrina
— Reply to Henry’s two awesome letters
What I do plan to do today, however, is to (finally) fold these clothes and clean my room. I miss there being space in my room, because in typical girl fashion, I have about a million clothes lying around. I’m not even sure how I’ve managed to put together any outfits in the past week and a half—it’s quite the accomplishment. Speaking of clothes, I plan to also buy a green shirt today. For once, I will actually wear green on this day.
Why am I putting this here? Refer to the first sentence of this blog.
Ps: I am listening to Typhoon (when am I ever not, right?), and I thought the title of this song was perfect. You can listen to it here.